Sunday, January 30, 2011

So, Yeah

That's it. This little project of mine is done.

The last episode obviously states that, but I do wish to take the time in this post to clear up one thing. I need to clear up the flaw of the episode, because with every episode ot TW, there was always a flaw.

I never really explained why the show is ending. Not directly. I think if you listen you can tell the reason is lack of enthusiasm, but more importantly, I do not feel the show fits me anymore nor is it anything worthwhile.

When TW began, I felt it was unique. It was the "younger perspective." The show built as a tool to speak for the younger guy in a sea of old men. TW brought a new perspective. It provided a centerpiece for the younger readers of comic books, or really just the younger audience of pop culture.

But as my perspective on comics and film and music and everything else began to change, the younger, fresh view point seemed to fade away. The show no longer reflected what it intended to. It soon became "just another comics show", and it was hosted and produced by a guy who could never really get it right. Or at least, a guy who could never make up his mind. Then that guy went to college, and Teenage Wasteland took a back seat.

Soon, other projects popped up, and a new interest in writing emerged. Before I knew it, TW was dead.

That was the story, the point I seemed to miss in Episode 89. I'm not done podcasting, not yet anyway. I'm just done with Teenage Wasteland. It no longer works; it no longer stands for anything. I just don't want to do it anymore.

But The Chemical Box, Matinee Idles...whether the audience of TW likes those shows or not, that is where my interest is at. I've grown to like the group podcast setup. I see what it can offer. But, like TW, I'm still trying to get it right. The Chemical Box especially. But I feel it working, I really do. The guys alongside me (Joey, Jean, Chris)...we know what we're after, and it's not what those first five episodes are. Those are us trying to be other podcasts. The future isn't about that. Podcasting isn't about that. Podcasting is about being yourself and not pandering to anyone. The Chemical Box will not do that. It will only be what we four want it to be. Nothing else.

But, again, I'm probably making this way deeper or emo than it needs to be. I can't help it, though. It's personal. All of this is personal to me. Why? I started with a solo show, and I carried a solo show for two years. I made it a part of me. It was something I did every week. Teenage Wasteland was in my life, and I have found actual people in my life because of it. I'm leaving the solo format for the group, but I will always love the solo podcast. That is podcasting to me. One person and a microphone. Intimate. Honest.

For now, though, I feel like I've done my thing with the solo podcast. I made my statement. Now, it's about writing and testing myself that way. Like TW, I'm sure my blog will have it's ups and downs, but life's all about challenges.

I like challenges, though. They teach, they educate. I'm always looking to learn and do something new.

*edit - 11/02/2011* the new

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